When your hearts beats abnormally. When you feel like you have butterfly in your stomach. When you just realized that you still have all of those things even after a long time relationship with your significant other, even after the ups and downs or all the hiccups along the way, you know it could be a sign that you’re loving someone.

It could be tiring, you know, loving someone. Because you never stop care about them. You never stop worry about them. In your meantime, you remember them, and suddenly it occurs to you, “has he/she eaten? has he/she drunk enough water? is he/she tired now with all those works? is he/she okay or happy?”. They’re still on top of your mind, even after your own long tiring day.

It could be tormenting, sometimes, loving someone. Especially when they’re in their lowest condition. We can’t stand seeing them so sick, sad or frustrated. If possible, we’d love to swap for awhile. “God, let me be the one who’s sick/sad/frustrated. Let them always be healthy and happy”, we beg God. Like, really begging.

But, mostly, it would be comforting, strengthening, and encouraging. Their hugs will feel like a charger after a long day. You feel like you’d like to spend hours just to cuddle with your him/her. Even without words being said. Their corny dad jokes will make you laugh out loud, somehow. You just didn’t realize that it’s not the joke that makes you laugh and have fun. But, it’s because you’re in your most comfort zone. You’re relax and letting go the negativity. You be your most inner self, loving and being loved limitless. It’s not because who they are, but, it’s because who we are when we’re with them.

You know what? It’s not only a theory about loving someone. It’s true. I have it, with Abang. The only person on earth that I care so much I can’t stop worrying him. Still, I have no objection with it. That being with him means recharging with all the cuddles, talks, and laughs. That spending time with him feels like home. Always.