I always be a tomboy since I was a kid. I rarely wear skirt and dress. My mom said when she made me wear dress or skirt, I kept feeling uncomfortable. When she changed my skirt into a short, I ran, jumped and played around happily. My only skirt I had was my high school uniform. Even when I was in middle school, I wore culottes instead.

It went on until college time. I always cut my hair short. A Pixie or boyish. I never wore skirt to class. I played futsal. I chose an electronic factory (LG Factory) as my internship place and milling industry (Bogasari) as my final assignment place. Reasons behind? Simply because I can still wearing my pants and sneakers while working there. People always mistaken me as a boy. Once, I picked up my friend from her language course. Her friends teased her as they thought her boyfriend (me) picking her up. And my friend didn’t even correcting them and giggly left them.

Actually, sorry to sound it too cliché, I changed my look since I got into relationship with Abang. He likes me when I put a bit of make up. And he likes my hair long. So I learned. Not to have a full make up every day, but just a little touch of face powder and an eyebrow. I rarely wear lipstick. I usually wear it in the morning, but then never re-applied it through the day. I still wear pants often. Sneakers is my life, couldn’t and wouldn’t have a day without it. I wear flats or heels only when I have an event to attend. I try to elongate my hair. But I keep whining when my hair get too long and cut it anyway at least up until my neck.

But, being a tomboy doesn’t mean I don’t play with colors. I looovee colors! I don’t care if the colors are too bright or sometimes looks mismatched. I just love to express my mood with colors. I choose bright colors when I feel excited, happy and on fire. I choose dark colors when I want to look a bit reserved or my mood is quite bad. I never doubt to put green and orange together or to mix blue and yellow. Or just a hint of bright red among the black. I think it’s just one of things that makes me feel alive and whole somewhat.