(Book Review) This Is How It Always Is by Laurie Frankel

This Is How It Always Is by Laurie Frankel book cover

This Is How It Always Is by Laurie Frankel
My rating: 4 of 5 stars

“How could you say yes to webbed feet but no to a dress, yes to being who you are but no to dressing like him? How did you teach your small human that it’s what’s inside that counts when the truth was everyone was pretty preoccupied with what you put on over the outside too?”

“Easy is nice, but it’s not as good as getting to be who you are or stand up for what you believe in”

This book is not centered on one transition in a family, but actually the whole family member. At the beginning it feels like Claude is a lucky boy when his family just accepted him of what he wanted to become. But when Claude transitioned as Poppy, the family changed too and easy is not exactly a word to describe what Poppy’s family experienced. I learned that an acceptance is not about we accept our family member as who they are, but also to admit to the world about who they actually are.

Reading this book really makes me devastated and heartbroken. In a good way. I love everyone here. I love Penn and his belief in fairy tail and fantasy. I’m so in love with his bedtime stories and how all the boys tucked in one bed to listen to their father’s story every night. I love Rosie and her logic. I sometimes rolled my eyes reading her thoughts and bold decisions, but then again, sometimes we need to be slapped with a reality. I love Roo and all of his mistakes that it’s actually a reflection on how confuse he is and how much he wanted to help his family. I love Ben and his kind warm heart. His witty brain and tender heart is showing how such a perfect brother he is. I love the twins Rigel and Orion. How they show behind his goofy characteristic, they all care about their family so much. And Claude/Poppy….what’s not to love? Their tender pure heart, the innocence and the vulnerability, everything in them just made me want to run toward them and hug them and tell him that he’s loved no matter what.

I’m so happy that this book has a happy ending. Like I said, it’s sometimes too devastating and heartbreaking to read. I even stopped for a couple of days because some of the events that happened here really hits close to my life and it triggered my anxiety attack.

I truly recommend this book to those who needs a lot of courage to come out, or to support our loved ones.

Breezes

Itโ€™s the 7th post for the 7 days writing challenge. Fun fact, I totally forgot that I haven’t posted the 7th post coz I thought the challenge has been done! Lol! Well, as like the posts before, I took this challenge as my way to learn how to write and enriched the characters in a book I currently write. Todayโ€™s topic is quite long. This is what the challenge maker wrote : Write a page of things taken in by you in the surroundings of your choice. Write everything your senses take in. Everything you see, hear, taste, smell and feel. This short story is a short sequel from my previous post called Summer Break which is the 2nd post for this 7 days writing challenge.


Hugoโ€™s holding his phone tightly. He keeps glancing over it every couple of seconds. His heart beats unusually fast and thereโ€™s something in his stomach that he canโ€™t describe. On the way to the bus stop, he received a long-awaited message from Gina, his crush from his English class. It just consists of 2 sentences. โ€œSure, why notโ€ and โ€œShould we do Teams call today?โ€. Today. Hugo has been waiting for 4 days since the last time he texted Gina to ask her to be his writing buddy for their summer homework. Now that heโ€™s giving up already, or maybe his mind is just being too preoccupied with the summer holiday and catching up with his mom, Gina finally decided to reply to his messages and asks him to have a video call today. Today. He suddenly feels a shot of hot lasers from his stomach right to his heart again reading the word โ€œtodayโ€.

He lets out a sigh and looks around the bus he rides. Though itโ€™s a cooler summer than where he comes from, some people here seem like canโ€™t handle the summer. An old man who sits in front of him lets out a big grunt trying to open the window as wide as he can. His aftershave smells like lavender that Hugo can smell it through the wind that blows from outside. It eases him a bit somehow because the smell reminds him of how his father smells. He dares himself to take a peek to his phone again and regrets it right away as his last reply to Gina’s text still left unanswered.

Hugoโ€™s bus is now kind of stuck in a traffic jam. Hugo curses himself why he didnโ€™t bring his earphone. Now all he can hear is just some car horns honking to each other like they can help to end the traffic jam. A toddler who sits at the front sit just keep whining to her mom asking to eat the candy they just bought. The old man in front of Hugo is now doze off and Hugo can hear his snoring slightly. Some street peddlers are approaching the bus and offering their goods through the busโ€™s open windows. One of the peddlers offer some bracelets made by fake pearls and its bright color somehow reminds Hugo of Ginaโ€™s smile. He glances back to his phone. Still nothing. Another sharp twinge in his heart.

Hugo reaches into his backpack and grabs a chocolate bar. The chocolate bar is surprisingly still in good shape and not melting despite the hot weather. He chews his chocolate slowly, tries to not think about his proposed time to have a Teams call with Gina which currently still hasnโ€™t been replied. The chocolate is sweet enough for his sweet tooth and he immediately grabs the second bar once he finishes with the first. His bus finally starts to move again, and some breeze blows from the outside and he can smell the lavender after shave from the old man in front of him. His mood lifts up a bit and Hugo decides to just put his phone in his shorts pocket. He tries to ignore his feeling and decides to enjoy the bus ride and his visit to the mall instead. At least, trying to.

15 minutes later, his bus is approaching the stop where the mall is. He grabs his backpack, puts his hand in his pocket just to make sure that his phone is still there, then walks toward the bus door. He passes the old man that now is awake and smiles at him. He stands in front of the toddler that is now busy with her candy and Hugo smiles politely to her mom. Her mom smiles back at him.

โ€œHave a good day, young man,โ€ she said to Hugo.

โ€œThank you, good day to you too!โ€ replied Hugo while walking out from the bus. He feels the buzz in his pocket. He glances to his phone again and see a text from Gina, โ€œSure. See you tonight!โ€. Smiling, Hugo starting to believe it’s a good day indeed.

A Haiku

Itโ€™s the 6th post for the 7 days writing challenge. As like the posts before, I took this challenge as my way to learn how to write and enriched the characters in a book I currently write. Todayโ€™s topic is : A Haiku about a favorite childhood memory. This is a Haiku by Hugo Novacek, 14, for his school assignment.


Beyond the window 
Leaves falls and breeze is colder
Your hug warm us, Mom

Hugo Novacek, class 8-5

Milo’s Complaint Letter

It’s the 5th challenge out of 7 days writing challenge. As like the posts before, I took this challenge as my way to learn how to write and enriched the characters in a book I currently write. Today’s topic is : A Complaint Letter.


To
Francesco Vella
Vella & Co Manager 
B265/36, South Drive

Dear Mr. Vella, 

I'm writing this letter to complain regarding the frames I ordered to your company last time. We definitely ordered black slim frame with catalogue code : BM360X as you can see in attached quotation. I know this is actually not a big deal as you can just deliver me with the right one, if only our order came NOT 3 hours before we started our exhibition and your staff mentioned that our actual frames haven't been made. We ended up have to put your bulky polka-dots frames instead, which is actually not that bad, IF AND ONLY IF my exhibition was held on some random daycares. Unfortunately, it wasn't.  

Here, I attach you some pictures of it. Hope you'll understand how creepy it is to look at some black and white forests with a blue-yellow-red polka-dots frames.

Regards,
Milo Novacek
Novacek's Gallery Owner

(Book Review) Felix Ever After by Kacen Callender

Felix Ever After by Kacen Callender
My rating: 4 of 5 stars

***SPOILER ALERT***

I’m writing this review because right now I’m still in withdrawal symptom after reading this and not ready to move on to other books. Yup, that’s the after effect of reading this Felix Ever After.

The way Kacen Callender write this beautiful story is so light and heartwarming that it lets me get drown in it. But behind that light and heartwarming there are so much ups and downs, much way deeper messages and some great learning about how to be an ally in LGBTQ+ community and, in this case, Transgender teens. I enjoy all the drama that is told here while also learn a lot on how to be a better human.

The story is really a rollercoaster. I gasped, shrieked, laughed, and yelped reading the stories. Sometimes I really feel annoyed how Felix thought about his friends, but then again, it’s actually what other teenagers would do when they still confused and, especially, questioning their identity. Ended up, I’m so attached with the story and interested in the characters here.

Somehow, I fell for Declan and Ezra. They’re just some lonely teenagers who are longing for love and affection. I love Leah as well. She’s such an angel! She fought with Marisol, her close friends, when she knew what Marisol said to Felix and she turned Austin, her cousins, to the dean when Felix and her found out about what he did at the gallery. She’s still 17, but she knows definitely how to behave in this world. I also cringed with some characters with their homophobic and transphobic attitude.

I just felt the ending is a bit rush suddenly. The way Felix finally decided that he’s a demiboy, that he’s willing to try with Declan, that he’s going to focus on himself and his art, or even when he’s decided that he’s actually in love with Ezra, it was only happened within 3-4 chapters out of total 25 chapters. Still acceptable, actually. Maybe I just didn’t want it to end too quickly as I’m being too engaged with it ๐Ÿ˜€

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